By this time I've erased four posts in trying to create one final one for today.
Here goes:
In AP Psych today, I learned taht through a test I am in between.
One side, (internal) thinks that all stress and factors and thigns that happen are on yourself.
Other (external), thinks taht all those things are due to uncontrollable forces, outside of our reach (fate, destiny) These people are generally more careless because they dont think there is much they can do to change things. I appear to be one of them, which is why I dont really feel scared for tests and homework and things that happen. Tahts the bad side of me. I expect. I have my standards set too low.
But when I look at everything thats happened in my life, I can't really say much was due to things that were completely out of my control, people really do hold over their own happenings, events, fortunes or misfortunes.
No more running away, no easy way outs. I will never stoop down to his level.

To be honest, I'm not a hard person to figure out, and for me that's bad.