my heart feels as if its clogging,

slowing down...

while im sitting here confused as ever...

only wishing that i could change things...

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i hate myself.

i hate my mom.

i hate how i can't do anything.

im starting to hate my life.

and i swore to myself id never say those words "i hate my life" with any truth in them..but...