if theres any words ive stopped using seriously, its "i hope.. lbah blah blah"
why? cause if i said it seroiusly for something i wanted to happen, it never works out.
its like a contrast. idk why, hope never really works out for me, and a lot of times
only makes things worse because when i say it, it gives me and any others false idk the word.. false assumptions? that things are gna get better or things will always go that way, so in the end we expect things to happen and so when they dont we're all asldfalsdfkasdf. unfortunately for me, ive used the word lots throughout the past years and each time produced nothing but broken expectations and lots of frustration. i thought saying "i hope" generally makes people happier and makes people believe in things, but for me, its the opposite now (if i say it anyways) i dont know why it happens to me, but yeah.

note to other people, you guys can still say it around me, im just not saying it for anythin serious haha