TOTDAy
was an amazing day :] x] and she DEFINITELY KNOWS WHY HAHA :]
hehe woke up at like 5 this morning waited for like 6 hours for her to contact me!! heheh then yeah :] those freaking boxesr
SO UNCOMFORTABLE
im so freaking sleeepyy :[
like im gna knock out
anyitme soon :[ >< i can barely think straight right now asldfaldjfasdj
im gna miss her this summer....

so like im home alone right now, havent had this kinda freedom in a bit LOL
well no beach practice tomrrow more sleep time x]
and getta spend mroe time with mah babayayyy :]
I GOT 780 ON 2C TEST TODAY WOOOTT xD
lallala my neck is tired x]
sleeeppyyyyyyy
lalal watching batman begins haha
i like this movie ! heheh its a reall hooker :]

I just dont know whats going on anymore....
I don't know what to do either...
what happened...

Don't let me go,

Don't let me go,

Don't let me go,

Don't let me go.

I AM SO TIRED/SLEEPY ONCE AGAIN
i want some good coffee :[ omg today was sucha long day
she was gone after 3rd and then i had to wait 2 hours for my freaking assessment test :[ that took me freaking 40 minutes -__- then
had to go do bio project which was barely productive :[
sigh i still have hw to do toooo :[
i wanna sleep haha
heheh cool though we're watching across the univeres in apush :]
patriot was a good movie x] VERY touching hehe
i think tochi was aboutta breakdown LOL

fuck my life.,...

fuck. my. life.

never.
will anyone ever know anything for sure.

fuck my life.

what sucks about being a teenager
is that most of the time we're still trying to figure out who we are.

rather refreshing i guess? idk...

wow haha this will be my 301st post xD
so yesterdays beach practice was intense 11 minute set damnnn... ><
my arms were so damn tired and my fingers started getting numb ><
after ryan and lester came over to wait for kuantings party and yeah we just sat there haha
kuantings party was fun though :] swam ALOT LOL and fooled around alot
wish htere were more people though haha
it was still fun though hehe, havent had a swim like taht in forever xD
so now im a bit sore today but yeah
im glad theres a holiday today omg i woulda died at school today ><

i dont know what the hell it is about me.
but everyone just happens to assume the worst out of me every fucking time.


maybe thats just saying..
loook at what a fucking crappy person you are jeff.
maybe they're right to assume the worst.

man.. so ive been trying to learn this one song and like the first time i got it
then i lose one part , then next time another part, its very unstable -__- man haha xD
today wasss sorta a long day, yet fast idk thats contradictory but idk xD
beach practice tomrrow! yessss POWER NOW.
i have the worst attention span i think when it comes to NEEDING to focus -__-. im horrible at focusing haha. maan i woke up feeling much better than i do right now ><
i dont know what i want in life anymore.

hehe otday was REALLY nice with her :]
i would totaly consider that a date except... I COULDNT PAY FOR ANYTHING :[
sigh.. and no the recession thing does not apply baby! i still needa pay or
my self esteem will plummet :[
you know... what little of it i have left...
LOL!
hehe night at themuseum two was very entertaining :D it never made mecheck the time or nothing! it was really random and fun :] and plus i got to spend quality time with mah babbayy! anddd
after we walked around sat around and ended up at heritage
it wasreallllyy nice :] like it just felt so right sitting htere holding he in my arms
watching the scenery (or whatever is at heritage LOl) singing and whispering "i love you"
i do love you baby :] thank you for a wonderful hangout! :]/ date

so like my tongue feels all fuzzy and tingly, not sure why but im guessing pineapple.
I licked tissue to see if it would help... i choked LOL
sooo had a nice time getting coffee with her today <3
is that considered a date? xD small one?
well im addicted to Don Ross - klimbim
sounds soopretty hehe
lalalla
summers begin LOL i dont wnaan do noshing :[

seriously.... im just speechless.... ugh.
im just never enough....




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why is it always "never" "can't" or "give up"?

"nothing worth having in life comes easy."






like the stuff i say even matters....
here i am acting like people still care...

if i had a gun
there'd be abullet through my head.

unbelievable.

ryan and frank. you guys are totally fucking right.

omg auditions in 2 days. scared? maybe xD
gotta memorzizeeee
anyways once again i am sleepy and i am developing junioritis like mad.
after aps, omg i dont wanna do NOTHING. :[
baby you are SO DAMN CUTE
ASLDLASDJLASDJLFAJSDLFASLDJF i love you :] sooo soososossoosoo much :D
hehe that was really cute :] you have no idea! anywaaaysss
webcam = closer :D

omg practie today was killer :[
those who went on saturday were already sore and now thiS!! :[
anyways YAY SHE GOT A WEBCAM :] dont have to miss her beuatiful face so bad :]
but im still missing those hugs and EEERYTHING ELSE :[
maan im so tired and sleepy i slept and didnt wana get up at all this afternoon. edwin called me twice and i fell right back to sleep each time LOL.
hehe im the sleepyhead for once !!
gosh she looks so cute on the webcam right now
i NEEDA HOLD HER :[[[

this love is one taht cant be defined by words :] <3 987

hehe today was amazing :D

thats all i have to say for now, but that pretty much sums up what im feeling right now x]

Two days have passed since AP testing has been over for me and im quite delighted to say that I feel much more free than I have all this year. Quite honestly, a big weight has been lifted. Well now, I must tell that I have fallen even more madly in love with a certain beautiful princess, very charming and there is no doubt that she is the most terrific human I have met. Today, I had an alright day at school, though all I could think about was how much I wanted the day to end and get onto the weekend free of AP worries. I am watching a movie currently by the name of "Finding Neverland" and I must say it is extremely entertaining and very thoughtful. Watching this movie, I realize how much more lively many things in life would be if imagination was applied to all these aspects; I miss those random thoughts filled with adventures and seeing things that other people don't see because its all in your head. I still have them occassionally and I guess at my age it is getting embarrassing to show that one still adheres to his/her imagination so closely. I wish I could see the things I saw as a kid once again quite frankly.

lalalala i love this girl named claraaa :]
she is the most amazing lovingest girl :]
lalala so it feels totally like a weekend once i get home LOL
i dont wanna do NOTHINGGGGGG :[
lalala aps overrrr !!!

gosh im so cooool :]
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10 9 8 7 3 5 4 1 2 :] i cant count backwards. but it doesnt matter cause i just wanted to sneak those 3 numbers in there :]

APS ARE OVERRRRR OMFG OMFG OMFG OMFG OFMG
no drive to do hw anymore LOL
just wanna crash and chiillll alllll daayyyyy yooooo
LOL.
heheh today felt so nice
ditching schoooool. i might become an addict!
LOL jk jk it would be nice to ditch more though xD
wellll practice was cool tooday, things fell into place and it sounds pretty cool :]
i missses herrr !!
SATURDAY

im just
speechles...

#1 Girlfriend Survey

Vital Stats
Full Name: Clara V****** Tran (not sure if she wants me to say middle name xD
Nick Name(s): for me? baby, stuff like that hehe CUTIE
Birthdate: Nov. 13 1992
Height/Weight:5' 3''? 10-
Where was she born?: not sure
Where does she live now?: cerritos
How far away from you does she live?: less than half a mile?
The Two of You
Where did you meet?: CMS middle school
How long have you been together?: uhhh unofficially 22 months, officially 20 months
Where was your first kiss?: heritage park under a clear night sky
What/Where was your first date?: uhh date.. we pretty much just like walked places n stuff haha x]
Family
How many brothers/sisters does she have? What are their names?: 1 Brother: Howard
What are her mom’s/dad’s names?: Dad: Eric? Mom: Ann
Do you like her family?:scary xD
Has she met your family?:NOPE
Do they like her?:dunno
Does she like them?:probably not hehe
Favorites
Favorite Colour:red
Favorite Song:aint no way
Favorite Band:chris brown, ne-yo and me of course
Favorite Candy Bar: doesnt really like candy
Favorite Ice Cream: coffee?!/lychee
Favorite Saying/Phrase:"you're lame!" jk hehe :]
Favorite Movie:hmm enchanted?
Favorite Show:used to be oth i think, now... gossip girl? secret life?
Likes/Dislikes
What does she like to do for fun?: hang out with me watch tv xD read news HAHA
What do you guys like to do for fun?: whatever flows !
Do you have a lot in common?:mmm sometimes
Favorite fruit/vegetable:hmm bananas? cucumbers?
Least favorite fruit/vegetable: oranges bitter melon
Favorite food:pizza
Least favorite food:skittles LOL
Complete Each Statement
When we’re apart:my world is empty, the world isnt right.
She makes me feel: like a bright light has just broken through a seriously cloudy day, heavenly
I’m really hoping that:we get our apartment :]
The greatest gift that she’s given me is: the greatest love and care, more than anyone has ever
The greatest gift I’ve given her is: i ahvent really given her much.. :/ bracelet!
Random Questions
Where does she want to go someday?: Africa/Cambodia/Vietnam to help
Does she make you laugh?: MOST DEFINITELY ! HIMONYM
Are you thinking of her right now?: always :]
Is she a good kisser?: oh yeaaaaah rawrrr
Do you dream about her?: not often
Does she dream about you?: probably not xD
Do you wish you could spend more time together?:yeaaah
Does she turn you on?:OH YEAH DEFINTELY
Do you guys have a “song”?:yesss
What is it?:I choose you, nice & slow
Is she a good dancer?:SHE WONT LET ME SEEE :[
Do you have pet names for each other?:pet names?
Have you celebrated a holiday together?:i wish...
Have you driven each other to the air port?:cant drive ><
Have you taken a trip together?:I REALLY WANT TOOO
Embarassing questions
Have you passed gas in front of her?:YEP
Has she passed gas in front of you?:NEVER
Do either of you burp in front of each other?:yesss very openly xD
Is that a big deal if you do?: i hope not lOL
Does she embarass you sometimes?:mmm not really?
Do you embarass her?:no?
Important Questions
Have you seen her cry?:yeaah
Has she seen you cry?:i think i tried to hide it from her
Have either of you said ‘I Love You’?:yea
Who?:both
How long ago?: almost 2 years ago
If you haven’t said it, do you want to?:always do
What’s stopping you?:nothing
Do you think you’re going to marry her?:i dont know haha, no one really knows
Do you think about marrying her?: sometimes
Do you want to marry her?: sometimes
How soon?: not soon
Can you picture having kids with her?: not sure haha
What would they look like?: if its her genes REALLY cute :]
Have you talked about marriage?: very little
Lastly…
Is it love or lust?:definitely love :]
Does she make you happy?:happier than anyone in the world :D
Really?:yesss
Is she the greatest thing since sliced bread?:DUH WAY GREATER
Do you think you will stay together?:yeah
Are you seeing her tonight?: oh i'd love to :D

this week wasnt the greatest and
yeah im guess im happy its finally over
regardless i sstill cant just sit around and do nothing yet (as much as id love to do that right now) and spend time with her
i miss the summer haha (beach, lotsa love and time with my baby :] and just the feeling of a little more freedom i guess)
im so out of it right now haha i feel like im in a 2nd world.

fuck school.

so im having really lots of trouble trying to find that right song
or types of songs that fit my voice. its tough. i wish i could be better or somethign. cause in reality the singing i do is only half as good as i hear it in my head. :/
maaaan...

POWER NOWW! DEEEP
READY UP READY UP
damn race was exciting today lotsa energy LOL
we kicked hs ass!!! and we did pretty good in mixed hehe GO DRAGONAUTS!!
man spent like hours there just doing random crap xD
it was pretty fun hehe our practice whatever little we had
i guess it payed off LOL...
i missed her so much though :[[ i wanted to squeeze her to death! not really (hug her :] ) hehehe
omg thsi week is ap week!! WHY AM I NOT FREAKING OUT LIKE I SHOULD BE :[

:/ goodnight...
sometimes i wish i knew more or something..
idk..

hehe this morning was just another random hangouts :]

always fun though hehe! LOL we pretty much broke into her house LOL
well tonigt is
FAME and i get to see her again kinda hehe :] YAY :D
i miss her ! i wish she was here :[ maaan i wish there was more time to just play around ><

i can't wait till a break omg.
we kinda jsut got off spring break but yeah..
im so sleep deprived, stressed and tired ><

i just wanna sleep and spend time with her! my days would be perfect hehe
privat time with her hehe :]
i love you so much baby! ypou're my all :]

so like im forming bags under my eyes :[ im turning into frank!