workin on a songand it goes liek this

It was a beautiful morning, not a spot of rain

A Beautiful morning, bright sunny day

IT was the perfect time, perfect time to say

“That I’m leaving, going away”

She said: Please don’t go! You’re all that’s left of me

Please don’t go! You said we’d always be

He said: Please don’t cry! Your heart is where I’ll be!

Don’t worry! Just don’t forget about me

-unfinshed

lame? probably xD

well today i went over to babys house to do a project LOL hehe

her dad was like in pajamas or somethign LOL hehe

well yeah we got most done just ogttta memorize nd crap :[ agh ! i hate you madame youre a bucking fitch!

well baby i really need to tell you that i love you! cause i just love saying it to you cause you really are my everything love :] <3

987 :DDDD

way to fucking bust a mood.
i dont want to fucking live under this houes with that fucking woman. not anymore.

maaaann
those freaking imagix people. asdflsakd not gna talk about it here.
well i was happy that i got to go out with my baby n stuff after school for once :]
spent some much needed time with her! i miss her badly right now though :[[[
sooo tomrrows star testing whcih means some much needed resting time i guess haha
only 5 juniors in my class xD my teachers boring and follows rules strictly ><
man i cant stop thinking of her right now!!! this blog post is gna be like riddled with her cause shes like all thats on my mind cause i seroiusly miss her :[ yes i said it again! i wish i was there (not here) xD i just wanna spend like a whole night with her :/ sleep and everything!

everythings been all over the place..
up and down up and down up and down. alksdjfalkdjf right?
the weeks been so damn stressful and this week doesnt prove to get any better.
i wanna get some sleep but i just cant find the damn time to get any effective rest.
i wanna get some freedom but i cant seem to really break away. i feel like im trapped in like a box.
each direction i go, right left up down i seem to hit a wall. idk why but so many things are just feeling so different. i just wanna like stop everything and get myself back together and recuperate.

screw school.
i wish i was in a position to say that...
life surpressing crap that makes or breaks your life
while in turn keeps you from living it to its fuller potential
i wish i could just give up.

i feel so disoriented rigth now. jasldjlfkadjsfladslfj

ugh. i feel so restrictd :/
idk i just feel like im not able to do anything. cause of my parents.

PROM 2009

was a success :]
thanks to janet and chris and baby for the morning :D
and thank you baby for being always so beautiful and cute and sexxaaayy :D
hehe took lotsa pictures! i think one of my fav is the one witht he tree and we're looking for each other x] hehe LOL at me dancing xD
more like me acting really strangely ahha x]
I LIKED MY HAIR TODAY HEHEHEHE
omg cheesecake factory huugee proportions!!! ima fatty fatty fatty!!!
cue was fun hehee and imagix was like uhh LOLcloser? closer sir, closser mam LOL
well yeah dancing was coool hehe cept we didnt freak :[ JK LOL ehehehe
freaking whole dance floor was one whole big freak circle LOl
hehe charicature was like im glad this is free HAHA :]
limo guy was cooolio hehe and the limo was realllyy nicee :D and damn i wish i could pull of a white tux. :[ im so not sexy!
her dress was so pretttty :D like
shes my princess :] CROWN HER! princess of cuteness and beuty :D
baby i love you, i reallly soo totally do :] you were amazing tonight !
im sorry it didnt end the way you and me both would like to but it was still one amazing night :]

you guys want me to get fucking better grades.
like all the shit you guys do makes my life any easier and makes my goals any easier.
and mom, seroiusly go fuck yourself. learn some common fucking sense. you're what makes humans seem like the evilest sons of bitches on the earth. if you were a politician youd be a fucking communist. i am so fucking sick of you. no matter what the fuck i do youre there to ruin everything. i havent gone through a day without you bitching and being completely irrational at me in fucking 4 years. maybe even longer. but its long enough. you are officially the definition of the word "bitch". please just fucking leave me the fuck alone. like seriously i odnt even know what the fuck is wrong with you, but there definitely is something majorly wrong. LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE AND GET THE FUCK AWAY. youre just a big heap of fucking lies and fake shit of selfishness, of extreme bias, you are the one of the worst sinners. even some people who've murdered people fess up, but you cant even fucking admit when youre fucking being stupid irrational and fucking lieing. i am sick and tired of your fucking shit.
Dad, thank you. Seriously for being here and doing all you can for me and better yourself, but honestly i dont understand how the fuck you deal with her. or why in hell you married her.I honestly don't know why you give in to her bullshit. or why you were about to send her to taiwan but didnt.

Your fucking failure, no-good, waste of a life son,

FUCK YOU MOM.
GET THE FUCK OUTTA HERE SEROIUSLY.
NOT MAKING ANYONES LIVES ANY EASIER TO DEAL WITH.
FOR FUCKS SAKE.
PLEASE JUST GO BACK TO FUCKING TAIWAN FOR NOW
FOR LIEK A FUCKING YEAR OR SOMETHING.
HOLY FUCKING SHIT.

i didnt see her at all today
me=sad :[ like :''''[
hehe im so cute NOT :]
but i know who issss :D hehehehehe :] :]
so i actuallly got some work done today xD and i dont wanna do anymore :[
maaan spring breaks over asldksdfalsdfajsdf
SUMMMER NOOO APS :[adsfasdjfladjf me = sad again ! hehe
i miss you baby :[ man we need tat apartment!!!! despereatley hehehe

hey girrll :D
hehe so loike today i like
misseedd herrrrr :] and still do
i baked some cookies though hehe :D pour vous! but they seroiusly arent even close to as how sweet youare baby :] <3
sooo today i did project with audrey diana and lucia and chris couldnt come! jerk LOL jk jk
it was a bit awkward xD got some work done heh
and then kuantings party thing was kinda boring haha nothign happened except
he was flirting majorly with his prom date LOL
well yeah x]

school is so ugh asldfdfj
the way the whole system works and everything idk..
i just dont want to believe in it..
its just so idk

today was fuuuunn :D
tsi was kay got a710 xD
well AFTER WE WENT TO BEACCH YEAAAUUHHHH :]
hehe we had a pretty safe driver too it went by fasstt :D
heehe the beach was awesome :D we liike ran around like mad playeed football :]
and eric brought his pretty sweet guitar and played some tuuuneess hehe tat was fun when we all sing along n stuff :]
DAIRY QUEEN LOOLL :]
omg havent had a bonfire in SO LONG! i totally smell like fire right now but w/e COOL :]
hehe sang more tunes good roasted weenies and SMORES :] hehe those were gooood :D
LOL so i did something even I think was pretty cute HAHA :] hehe
I JUST WANT YOUUUU :D
i love you baby you were so flippin cute today hehe :D thanks for making it so awesome :]
and thanks to the people who came today for making it super fun :D

so i finally got my internet back..

i feel like shit.

spring break just started. !
today i just sat at home and played guitar and sang n stuffs x]
loonng afternoon >< though i do miss her quite dearly :[
lalala so im getting my haircut tomrrow! finally LOL my hairs starting to bug me too x]
i know for sure its not gna be uneven this time though xD hehe
i miss spending those hours with her :[ doesnt matter ifits just walking around or at that certain place . :[

hehe football today was fun :]
cept i faceplanted earlier and my face got like super itchy ><
i got kncoekd down! HAHA
like omg! she touched me ! *faint (i got touched by an angel HAHA baby :] )
yay more practice tomrrow! x]
HAHA "we didnt expect ryan to show up!" LOL x]
lalala i so freaking miss her right now :[
in about 1 hour and 5 minutes ...
HAPPY 19 MONTHS BABE :] iloveyousodearlyandsomagically:D you supercutie! :]
everything <3

so im beginning to feel closer to some people
and much more distant from others, but its not a bad thing.
and there are reasons for that. some are just easier to talk to, and will actually listen if you have something to say, and any advantages they've got, they dont take it for granted.
ive figured that for the past like 4 years, ive wanted to and did hang out with the wrong person or crowd to be nonspecific right now. but babe when you read this you'll know who im talking about haha.
shoulda started keeping distant once hs started.

sounds kinda gay but yeah.

dragonboat otday was fun haha :]
my week overall...
up and down like a freaking rollercoaster.
sleepy as heck too :/
theres so much to do thsi month :[ so little time ><
VERY. LITTLE. TIME.
but after this
ill be freeeeeeeeeee
darn bugs.
starting to feel a lot like summer :/

BEAAAAAACHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

i miss her....

my throat hurts.
and its probably swollen.

this is just great....

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what the fuck.