Monday, July 28, 2008

it hurts to see how badly she wants to leave this place.
and how we tend to focus so much more on the time we DONT have together

yheah...

Friday, July 25, 2008

soooooo today started off REALLY slow and i dindt pass permit test :[ :[
and then i went to tsi to take hafl the model test ><
BUUUT AFTER THAT wheee e :]
i went to gonsalves park safety wall and left a message there for baby to read :D :D
and then and then i went to her house all sweaty n stuffs and we had trouble ordering pizza HAHA
then jessica came and we filled up tons of water ballooons ! omg the water fight was soo fuuuun, we ended up doing it at Clara's house eithere way it was AWESOME :D we went CUHRAZY HAHAHA
dude ryan was SOOO gay today ><
and then we went to kuantings house to swim and playeed "truth" LOL that was fun :]
makingout and burping HAHAHA
omg i played babe "the greatest story ever told" that ive been practicing for like 2 weeks now, iw as so nervous iw as like SHAKING HAHA, it was really cool though :] everyone was there to see me sing it to her HAHA :] and then collide i walked up to her :D i hope she really liked it !!
theeen we just sat around and she gave me two cuuutee notes <3
she left at like 9ish we walkd around for a bit and just held hands and kissed :] <3
BASICALLY,

GOSH, I LOVE HER SOOOO MUCH and even through all the stuff that happened between us we still are the "greatest story ever told" and keeping going :D

i love you baby with all my heart, always <3 love 987

i wish we could just like lay there on her bed :] its like the most amazing feeling and moment, one you only feel when two people are completely comfortable and in love with each other <3

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

sooo today was really fun and amazing :]
it felt totally right and comfortable, like it was meant to be.
and just laying there with her and seeing what it felt like, it feels so right to be laying there next to her, holding her as we lay down :D

how far will we go this week? i dont know, (anything BUT "that")
all i know is that our love only grows
and stronger as we go :D

LOVE and beyond, 987 :] <3
my heart to yours baby :D

Saturday, July 19, 2008

today was pretty much awesome and amazing spending it with her! :D
it was scary how her mom was liike 10 min on her way home LOL whew! :]
but seriously today was amazing baby, i love you so so sosooooo much !
its good to know you're always here for me, and that you love me, it really is.
987 always <3
this is love, or more than that, but its definitely something only we can express and feel baby :]

tonight was horrible, it was so awkward there..
idk i just feel completely different from them. it was really boring there too...
i just sat there watching them play games and watch avatar, and i got tired of that so i just played around with my guitar, luckily i brought it.

but then once i got home i called baby and it was really soothing and good to hear her voice <3

Friday, July 18, 2008

alot of the times, things happen cause we get angry at the wrong things.
why are we getting angry at each other for decisions we didnt make?
getting fed up with things that aren't our fault
for things our parents make us do?
why ?

i think thats why crap happens so much partly.

i hate how i just realize this now...
im a bastard.

Sunday, July 13, 2008

Start with your name:
Jeffrey Tarn

How did you wake up this morning?
dunno

Do you believe everything you hear?
Nope

Do you live near your best friend?
um

What are you wearing right now?
tshirt, shorts

Is there anyone you would die for?
yeah

Where were you at 11:45 AM today?
its 7:17 AM

How long have you been breathing?
16 years

Are you taller than 5'5"?
nope

If you're being extremely quiet what’s it mean?
im thinking, zoned out, sad

What time did you go to bed last night?
11:50

What are you doing tomorrow?
nothing.

Does anyone like you?
yep

What were you doing an hour ago?
sleeping

Are you married?
Nope

What's one thing you want right now?
more time with her

Do you love anyone?
yep

What is your natural hair color?
dark brown

What color are your eyes?
Dark brown

Do you like your first name?
not really

What are your initals?
JT

How do you feel about chocolate covered strawberries?
good?

Do you like the color gray?
Yeah

Last time you ate grilled cheese?
years ago

When you think of a rainbow, what pops in your head?
gay?

How are you feeling?
emptyish

Do you trust all of your friends?
Nope

Would you go in public looking like you do right now?
sure

What did you do last night?
nothing...

Do you wear contacts or glasses?
glasses

Do you like your music loud or at a reasonable level?
louder

Are you a beach person or a snowy mountain person?
beach

Who was the last person to text you?
Clara

What annoys you most?
hypocrisy, fake people

When do you prefer to take a shower, morning or night?
whenever

What's the next vacation you're going on?
idontkonw

Do you like scary movies?
sometimes

Would you rather stay home all day, or be out and about?
depends whos with me

What's the last thing you purchased?
arizona green tea

Do people ever spell your name wrong?
all the time

Is there anyone you regret ever meeting?
Nope

What are your plans for the weekend?
none

Where are you at noon everyday?
somewhere

What is your favorite movie?
idk

What do you think of winter?
lame, cause its socal

When was the last time you swam?
weeks ago

Do you keep your closets organized?
barely

Do you want to have a boyfriend this summer?
im not gay

Who did you last fall asleep with?
idk, myself?

Are you a morning person or a night person?
depends

Who's bed did you last sleep in?
the floor

Do you believe that there is always room in your heart for your first love?
huh?

Have you cried today at all?
Nope

What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?
not even 8 yet

Do you say sexy a lot?
Nope

What is something you currently want?
lots more time with her

What are you looking forward to?
spending time with her?

What was the weather like today?
weird

What do you want for christmas?
her

When do you go to sleep?
when i really have nothing else to do

Are you going to have a good night?
probably not

Do you have strange dreams?
Nope

What are you listening to?
nothing

Are you happy?
eh

Do you currently miss someone?
i do...

Did you date someone in the spring?
yeah

Three feelings at the moment?
empty, saddish, stomach hurts

Name someone with the same b-day as you?
none i know

If you could move somewhere else, would you?
yeah

Where will you be 2 hours from now?
same place

Last person who said i love you to you?
clara

In a relationship?
yeah

Has your ex moved on?
what ex?

Are you easily confused?
sometimes

Do you think you would make a good wife/husband?
not sure

Do you fall for people easily?
nope

Everything happens for a reason?
not always

What does your last text message read?
Babe can you text me ryans number

When is the last time you saw number 1 on your top friends?
a few days ago

How has the week been?
bleh..

Do you sleep with the TV on?
nop

Are you too forgiving?
idk

Who do you miss?
baby

Do you have anything in your pockets right now?
keys

How many windows are open on your computer?
one

In the past week have you gotten sick?
Nope

In the past week have you gotten your hair cut?
nope

How many profile views do you have?
not on myspace

Who's your last call from?
babe

How much clothes do you have in your closet?
not sure

On a scale of 1-10 How good is life?
right now.. 5-6

Are you high-maintenance?
idk

Are you happy with the way life is going?
i dont know

Saturday, July 12, 2008

feelin empty today...

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

my effing fone. ugh.


sajdflajsdfij

Sunday, July 6, 2008

im sad... :/

Saturday, July 5, 2008

soooo TODAY.
i woke up at like 8:30 -___- and then went to tsi to take the freaking LONG 3 HOURISH TEST.
IT WAS FREAKISHLY LONG. and i keeppttt thinking about her :] cause cause cause i MISSED HER SO MUCH! ><
after that jrs parents took us out to eat at sizzler! it was pretty good :] then me and jr jujst like hung out xD that was aalrright

but i still missed her >< i just wanna give her a big big humongous hug and super paassionate kiss !

and then hold her for the rest of the dya too :]

Friday, July 4, 2008

today is july 4th!

sooo it started out early in the morning for me cuase i woke up at 8 ><
it was really llooong and boring and i really missed her :/ when she was out
but then once we got to see each other....
:D :D :D
heheh i was sooo happy to see her ! it felt like she was trapped at that persons house ><
and then we hung out wiht jessica-mark, krishna, and amy heheh iit was pretty cool :D
but it all came down when the fireworks came :]
me nd her found the perfect spot and had another freaaaking amazing moment :] just watching the fireworks ina secluded spot all to US <3 holding her and just looking up at the sky :D

how do i know i love her?
cause she makes me smile. cause she makes me happy.
i melt everytime im with her :D we share moments that are just magical and awesome and amazing and love-filled to the max <3 style="font-style: italic;">love. its beyond that :] <3 987.

she really lit the day up for me today :D
brighter than the fireworks <3

Thursday, July 3, 2008

x claraaaa: yur lik a spokes person
x claraaaa: LMAO
teh tArN aGe: LOL
teh tArN aGe: HOW
teh tArN aGe: LOL
x claraaaa: COS
x claraaaa: YUR LIK
x claraaaa: idk
x claraaaa: HAHA :]
x claraaaa: i love yu :D
x claraaaa: hehehe
teh tArN aGe: HAHAH WTH
teh tArN aGe: i love you too :]
teh tArN aGe: LOL


HAHAHA
omg i love her :] she makes me smile and laugh more than anyone else and unlike anyone else:]
<3
so much more than anything always :D

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

she really cares for me..
i can feel it everytime she hugs me,
kisses me,
tells me to sleep earlier,
helps me diet,
tells me shes going to help me do better,
everytime im with her...

<3

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

ive never connected with anyone on this level before.
ive never felt this way about anyone before
its freaking amazing, and its just like a rush of a whole bunch of feelings bursting in my heart which all mean one thing: love. :] <3