WHOOOSH :]
today went by REALLY fast!

so in the morning i went to go meet up with my baabbbyy :]
and we went to go walmart to buy supplies and we met kyle!
heheh that was coool

beach was like amaaazing :D
i wana thank everyone for coming and making it like the best birhtday thing ever!
(esp. hunniebunchies <3 she's awesome fantastic wonderful :] love spending time with you!)
it was crazy today! people get freaking c aked, sunset <3,
it was cool me clara kyle kristen hung out a bit heh
and omg pictures :]
perfect in our own way !
and a thought i have; the realest people i know: baby(clara) and kyle

anyways i really liked today!
happy birthday kyle!
and
iloveyoussooooomuch baby! :D

ugh.
im a horrible person.. :/

can you help me
can anybody out there help me?

and i will take
you in my arms
and hold you right where you belong...

i just want to love you more and more,
to love you better,


always baby,
always..

iloveyou.

she is...
the sweetest girl ever <3
the best,
the cutest,
most beautiful girl
i know :D

so i sang for her on the phone earlier! i was soo nervous ><
like i started sweating right after xD

but hopefully it realy made her day even just a bit better :]

baby i love you <3

HAPPY 11 MONTHS baby <3

last night we got to hang out for abit and it was just as amazing as the last everytime :]
i wish we had like LOTS more time together!

so today was pretty like monotonous until i got to talk to her :]
she wasnt doing too great >< so i tried to cheer her up and hopefully it worked!
baby ill always be here for you, ill always make time for you, acuse you are my world,
i want you to be happy, and i love you soo much.

yesterday!
was amazing :]
the morning went by like SUPER fast and it was loots of fun with her :D
she wrote on that wall in the alley and drew on the trash can! heheh she's so darn cute !
i just wanna like hold her like everytime i think of her!
so we just like pulled a spring break at the park yesterday x]
but dang, it feels good just to be with her! and it was still loads of fun!

after that the day got like looonger and longer cause she wasnt there ! :/
heh its okay hopefully we can hang out tomrrow too :D

i love her <3 987

i want to...

show you more how much i love you

to give you all the hugs alll the kisses you deserve

and all the i love yous and i miss yous that i feel.

i want to...

show you more how much i love you

my heart melts, softens
ANY time i think of you.

im always so afraidof losing you. ><

listening to lyrics of songs
i've realized how much some songs can tell you
about life n crap.
in some cases they can explain alot.

omg
got that gig over with it was so freaking
nerve racking
BUT i had my #1 fan there to make it all good :D
i seriously feel like calm or ilke
i can do things when shes there!
and like when im with her i just like
iono!
my heart just like
IDK how to explain this feeling!

Love!

soo....i could barely sleep...
all i could think about was her
and how i feel all alone again...
what makes me feel even worse,
is that i did this to myself.

idk what got into me yesterday.... but that didnt feel like me..

im hurting myself.

im scared.

of losing her...
i love her,
i Need her.

so what the freak am i doing....

for that once in awhile, i wanna effing cry.

i ruin every goddamn thing...

sooooooooooo
omg
im so nervous about saturday ><
like i feel like im prepared but then agin not enough
ANYWAYS
today she wrote me this really cute note today <3
it was on an H&M reciept heheh it was really cool :]
just like how i wrote on a tissue box cover LOL random xD

todayyy after schooool
i missed her soo much!
like i just sat here and thought about her and her smile
her hugs and how happy she makes me :]
i love her :D

these past weeks have been so messy...

my mind is like all over the place
and i feel like its getting harder to concentrate ><
i want a break :/ weekends arent enough .

on the other hand....
i love her :D
she's so
goshdarn cute :]

i hate my mom.
shes so fucking annoying.

it feels so different....

:/

:/
its amazing how empty and lonely i can feel sometimes...
cause im missing her..

im dont want to lose you....

ima fucking retard.

and i am incredibly fucked up.

no one deserves to go through the crapi put on people.....

i just shouldnt say anything anymore?

and no matter what i keep feeling like im that person you hate so much in your posts... cause i am one messed up person.....
im coming to believe that is me. that person she describes as the worst.